Dear Life
Life, you have been a constant force in my story, always hovering and always surprising. Sometimes crippling, sometimes unbearable, sometimes breathtaking, sometimes awe inspiring.
Most times discouraging and fleetingly amazing.
You have sent low woes and high, highs.
You have given and taken.
You have given me love and given me grief.
You have given me stability and have given me uncertainty.
You have given moments of absolute joy and moments of absolute misery.
I have laughed, cried, screamed, moaned, sighed, begged, hungered, pleaded but to no avail.
Peace I seek
Peace in this World of Chaos
The Chaos you bring in the times offence and outrage: floods, cyclones, strife, hunger, disease & war, it all rages on in a furnace of despair.
People wonder at the future but remain in the past; where pain is a constant friend
So long have they been paired that they can no longer be separated in fear of renewal of the soul.
Pain has embedded itself in the skin, ingrained, it has become like the black ink of a written tattoo.
The scars we carry a reminder of the story we tell
The scars are more internal now than on the exterior
We break hearts and souls and to show no hurt, we hide in social media and fairy tales and television.
The television giving an escape to the emotion bottled inside of us when all we want to do is claw out the pain and be bare of it.
We hurt each other to feel alive
We live in fear of being the next victim, the next television news reel
In terror we remain in habit, but forget that movement is life.
Forward is life
One step is a gasping breathe of air from under the ocean of information and barricaded walls of life.
So I step
One
Step
One
Step
Forward
Reaching for renewal, forgiveness and strength.
I need you Father, Adonai
I need you Yeshua, Prince of Peace
Help me breathe again
They seek to destroy me
Help me please
T